Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I choose truth

Ugh, I had to make a very hard choice today. I am still reeling with the decision, and how I'm going to tell  about this decision I made? Actually, both of them. I think they will hate me for what I'm going to tell them...

I think that when we choose from a place of truth, the choice might be easy because our heart guides us to the truth. Whether we like it or not, our heart knows the right choice, and our gut confirms what our heart is telling us. The choice might be clear, and the path to take seems evident. But then... in living our truth... well, that seems to be where the going gets rough. 

So, now, I must explain the reason to them for my choice. And I cringe, and hope that they will understand, and not hate me. I have forged this path before, and the "hate me" part is where I get stuck. In the past, they have either, 1) not understood, and gotten mad at me  2) not liked it, 3) not liked ME for what I have to say, 4) just plain hated me, or 5) just ignored me from that moment on....  :o(

It doesn't bode well for me. No wonder we struggle with living our most honest, heartfelt Truth.

I just hope they can see my side of things, and respect me for my decision. In choosing Truth, at least I know the choice is right for me. In making this decision, my heart is lighter, and I know it is right. At least I have that to hold on to. 

Let's hope they don't take it too hard.

In Truth,

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Messenger Magic

Image from Facebook via my dear friend, Sara
What does one do when a prayer is answered? Laugh, giggle, dance ...and sing? Yes, I think so. How about... If all your prayers - ALL of them...  are answered ... ALL at once?

I have been numb for two weeks now, just trying to soak it all in. I pinch myself, and can't believe it is so. I think it is okay to smile, and feel free, but still the oppression of the "Before" is sitting upon my shoulders. I don't want to ever forget "the Before," because I know the Before like the back of my hand now. I guess I'm going to need to keep that Before with me, right in my back pocket. That Before will keep me humble. Yes, very very humble.

You know this too, don't you? Maybe your prayers were answered last month or last year, or maybe everything you were working for came together many years ago, but today you can remember it like it was yesterday. The relief... the lightness it brings to your heart. The feeling that makes you cry hot tears of relief, and at the same time, run and twirl with joy....

Calling to my angels... how can ever I thank you? The trying, the hoping, the hurting, the not being sure how to do it, the messages, the messengers... The Messengers. Oh, how important to be open to the messengers!

How did it all come together ALL at once? Like a magic firestorm...

Still so numb in the looking back, and seeing the messengers at work, and how they pulled me towards the place I needed to be. I am ... floored....

Thank you. 

To the Universe... how can I ever thank you enough???

For now, I think I am going to take a very small, a very tiny b-r-e-a-k. Maybe just for a day. I think I will knit. Something I haven't done in quite a while. I will read a book too. I know just the one. I will walk in nature and marvel at the birds and the leaves on the trees. They are really, so, so SO healing to my heart. 

And, I will prepare for the future. It's going to be a different future for me, from this day forward. Very different. As for me, today, I am crying a lot, and I am more thankful than I have ever been in my life. Ever. In my life. 

Yes, God. I know you are there, and you know me, and somehow, my words here in this world, even this bloggie world, are being placed at your feet. And I am numb with relief, and so, so SO thankful....

Your forever gal, 


Friday, September 7, 2012

Sugar Skull Portraits- Eek!!!

I guess the impending fall season has gotten a hold of me. What's new in the studio this week are a mess of Sugar Skull pillows. I just couldn't resist photographing them in portrait format. They are too cute!

Of course, after the first dozen or two photos, I had to enlist my son, Kyle. I think he captured the images very nicely, Lol!

I'm working on these crazy pillows for next weekend's Coronado Art Walk. Mark your calendar! We'll be set up in beautiful Coronado by the Ferry Landing. My booth is right down by the bay. I hope you'll stop by!

x, Skele-Val